Friday, May 05, 2006

On My Last Nerve!

Fireman is getting on my last nerve. You see, he's on vacation right now which is awesome for him. He gets 5 shifts off, and given the fact that he works at the fire department every 3rd day, that equates to a whopping 15 days off.

Here's the major problem...

I don't know if you know what a teacher's life is like at the end of the school year, but let me tell you, it's INSANE! School ends in less than 3 weeks. Then there's the fact that the 3 graduate classes I've been taking this semester were ending this week, and you can probably imagine that my life is pretty much hellacious right now. I've been pulling my hair out.

The thing is that it's more than just this situation. This situation just magnifies an already obvious challenge. Fireman has never had a life as busy as mine - ever. So it's really hard for him to relate to what I'm going through. He never has that much stress in his life. His work stress comes in spurts... like when they get a call. And I can't imagine how much adrenaline must start flowing then. But he doesn't have on-going stress, and I do. I always have.

Our lives have just been sooooo different. He's trying to be understanding, but he just doesn't have that much going on in his life except me. When he's not working, he wants us to be together. Like ALL THE TIME! EVERY FREE SECOND! On the phone and in person. And we don't even live in the same state! That's really sweet, but OMG it's getting on my nerves. He really is trying though, so I feel guilty saying he gets on my nerves, ya know? He's just so much needier than anyone I've ever dated. I'm the one who has always been the needy one in a relationship, so this is so strange to me. Completely unchartered territory. One of my best friends told me that he was just "the girl" in the relationship and to just accept that. But (* insert whiny voice here) I WANT TO BE THE GIRL!

I just wonder if the territory is too rugged a terrain for us to cross.

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