It's late. Everyone has gone to bed, and I can't sleep. It's been a while since I've written an entry, and I thought now may be a good time.
I'm in Disney World with my family, and I feel totally and completely blessed and at peace. This trip was my father's idea. It was my mom's Christmas, birthday and anniversary present rolled into one. I'm sure she received gifts for each occasion, but this was the "big gift." You see, the whole family is here... Mom, Dad, Brother, Sister-in-law, 3-year-old niece, 9-month-old niece, and me. I've been to Disney a number of times before, as has everyone else in my family except for my nieces. But what could be a better gift for my mom than to get to experience her first grandchild's first experience at Disney World?! And what better gift for her 35-year-old aunt?!
Honestly though, I'm not sure who's having more fun, C (the 3-year-old) or my brother (the soon-to-be 38-year-old.... on June 1st). Today we had breakfast with Winnie the Pooh, Piglet, Eyeore, and Tigger. You should have seen C's face. She was SO excited to meet, hug and have her picture taken w/ them. And my brother, her dad, was beside himself. He had a smile from ear to ear watching her meet them. It melted my heart. She also met Mickey, Goofy, and Chip and Dale today, too.
And today was only the first full day here! We're here thru Sunday! We are staying in an awesome 2500 sq ft 3 bdrm/3 bath villa right on the Board Walk in Epcot. There are balconies all across the back and out of each room right above the board walk and overlooking the lake. It's truly magnificent.
http://disneyworld.disney.go.com/wdw/resorts/resortLanding?id=BoardWalkVillasResortLandingPage
C asked if she could sleep in the room with her Aunt L, which of course I LOVED hearing. As I listened to her say her prayers tonight, my eyes started to well up with tears. She thanked God for everything she got to do today. And she has the sweetest little voice. To hear her say the whole Lord's Prayer by heart and then the Hail Mary, is just too much. How did I get so lucky??
If I died tonight, I'd be a happy woman.
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Friday, May 05, 2006
On My Last Nerve!
Fireman is getting on my last nerve. You see, he's on vacation right now which is awesome for him. He gets 5 shifts off, and given the fact that he works at the fire department every 3rd day, that equates to a whopping 15 days off.
Here's the major problem...
I don't know if you know what a teacher's life is like at the end of the school year, but let me tell you, it's INSANE! School ends in less than 3 weeks. Then there's the fact that the 3 graduate classes I've been taking this semester were ending this week, and you can probably imagine that my life is pretty much hellacious right now. I've been pulling my hair out.
The thing is that it's more than just this situation. This situation just magnifies an already obvious challenge. Fireman has never had a life as busy as mine - ever. So it's really hard for him to relate to what I'm going through. He never has that much stress in his life. His work stress comes in spurts... like when they get a call. And I can't imagine how much adrenaline must start flowing then. But he doesn't have on-going stress, and I do. I always have.
Our lives have just been sooooo different. He's trying to be understanding, but he just doesn't have that much going on in his life except me. When he's not working, he wants us to be together. Like ALL THE TIME! EVERY FREE SECOND! On the phone and in person. And we don't even live in the same state! That's really sweet, but OMG it's getting on my nerves. He really is trying though, so I feel guilty saying he gets on my nerves, ya know? He's just so much needier than anyone I've ever dated. I'm the one who has always been the needy one in a relationship, so this is so strange to me. Completely unchartered territory. One of my best friends told me that he was just "the girl" in the relationship and to just accept that. But (* insert whiny voice here) I WANT TO BE THE GIRL!
I just wonder if the territory is too rugged a terrain for us to cross.
Here's the major problem...
I don't know if you know what a teacher's life is like at the end of the school year, but let me tell you, it's INSANE! School ends in less than 3 weeks. Then there's the fact that the 3 graduate classes I've been taking this semester were ending this week, and you can probably imagine that my life is pretty much hellacious right now. I've been pulling my hair out.
The thing is that it's more than just this situation. This situation just magnifies an already obvious challenge. Fireman has never had a life as busy as mine - ever. So it's really hard for him to relate to what I'm going through. He never has that much stress in his life. His work stress comes in spurts... like when they get a call. And I can't imagine how much adrenaline must start flowing then. But he doesn't have on-going stress, and I do. I always have.
Our lives have just been sooooo different. He's trying to be understanding, but he just doesn't have that much going on in his life except me. When he's not working, he wants us to be together. Like ALL THE TIME! EVERY FREE SECOND! On the phone and in person. And we don't even live in the same state! That's really sweet, but OMG it's getting on my nerves. He really is trying though, so I feel guilty saying he gets on my nerves, ya know? He's just so much needier than anyone I've ever dated. I'm the one who has always been the needy one in a relationship, so this is so strange to me. Completely unchartered territory. One of my best friends told me that he was just "the girl" in the relationship and to just accept that. But (* insert whiny voice here) I WANT TO BE THE GIRL!
I just wonder if the territory is too rugged a terrain for us to cross.
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